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Tuesday, December 25, 2018

Bahasa Jiwa Bangsa


Menerjah kembali blog yang dah lama aku tinggalkan. Hampir seabad aku sudah lama tidak kembali menulis di alam maya ini. Pengnjung semakin susut dan kurang bacaan dari orang awam. Biarlah, aku perlu kembali menulis, mengasah taji yang sudah tumpul matanya. Aku masih ingat punjangga berkata, mata pena itu jauh tajamnya dari mata pedang. Benar, mata pedang itu mampu mengguris luka di badan. Tetapi kata-kata mampu menusuk hati dan sanubari seseorang. Aku perlu terus menulis. Biarlah tana bacaan sesiapa, aku masih mahu melontar idea.

Minat terhadap bahasa menjadikan aku jatuh cinta. Bahasa yang kini kian malap apinya, yang satu ketika dahulu terkanal sebagai lingua franca nusantara. Yang tinggal cuma sejarah, bermegah dengan kisah silam dan kian layu ditelan masa. Perjuangan bahasa tu sebahagian daripada perjuangan bangsa. Sungguh aku bukan jati nya melayu, tetapi bahasa ini menjadikan aku lebih kenal apa itu budi bahasa.

Aku cuba singkap kembali aturan tulisan lampau, menjengah seberapa kerat nukilan lama, menyelak kisah lalu. Benar, pengalaman itu guru terbaik. Pengalaman mengajar aku apa itu berbudi dalam bahasa. Bahasa itu medium khusus untukmenyampaikan maklumat. Melalui bahasa, kita kenal budaya. Bahasa menhubungkan manusia. Tanpa bahasa yang baik, kita mudah menjatuh hukum tanpa neraca. Silap bahasa, kita mengundang bencana tak diduga. Kitalah yang menjaga keaslian bahasa kita. Jika bukan kita, siapa lagi?

Aku juga bukan orang yang selayaknya berkata soal bahasa. Tetapi sekurang-kurangnya aku cubamenjaga dan menonjolkan keunikan dan sisi indahnya bahasa ini. Anak muda dan golongan tua sibuk melaungkan slogan lndungi bahasa kita, tapi seindiri gagal berbahasa ibunda dengan baik. Berbual penuh gasar, menulis penuh singkat. Belum lagi dicampur dengan bahasa pasar yang bercampur baur perkataan entah dari mana, dijadikan bahan bual seharian. Alah bisa, tegal biasa. Sudah menjadi sebahagian budaya katanya, sehingga terlindung celanya bahasa.


Definisi Hidup Berbeza


Setiap manusia itu dikurnia atribut berbeza supaya melengkapi antara satu dengan yang lain. Tidak ada manusia yang sama secara total, hatta berkongsi DNA dan nasab keturunan yang sama. Meraikan perbezaan, pendapat dan buah fikiran yang tidak serupa menjadikan hidup ini lebih harmoni. Oleh tu, definisi dan hakikat kehidupan ini dinilai dengan kaca mata yang berbeza.

Setiap manusia yang mukallaf mempu berfikir dan menilai baik dan buruk sesuatu perkara menerusi timbang tara akal dan dari guru bergelar pengalaman. Ramai yang mempunyai pengalaman dan ilmu yang luas lebih memilih untuk berdiam diri berbanding berhujah kosong tanpa matlamat. Ramai yang mempu memberi kritikan dan menimbulkan masalah, tetapi amat minoriti yang mampu memberi huraian penyelesaian. Padahal tujuan utama perbincangan dan perdebatan itu mencari jalan keluar dari kemelut masalah.

Orang yang mempuyai ilmu dan menghormati ilmu ini sangat minoriti. Sugguh pun jumlah yang berdaftar punya sijil ilmu itu ramai, tai tak semua mereka berilmu. Sejauh mana adab mereka dengan manusia lain, tutur kata yang berzikirkan makian, bukan ciri-ciri orang yang berilmu. Setinggi mana juga pencapaian peribadi, bukan tiket mutlak kita melontar maki kepada manusia lain.Kembali ke konteks perbincangan asas, hidup ini dilihat menerusi kaca mata yang berbeza. Mungkin seorang manusia boleh melihat dari aspek berbeza. Apa lagi jika kita kenal lebih ramai manusia. Lebih banyak input yang kita akan lihat dan timbang tara.

Apa juga definisi kita, satu perkara yang pasti ialah dunia ini dihuni oleh manusia yang pelbagai. Tiada manusia tunggal mampu mengawal seluruh alam seorang diri tanpa meminjam khudrat orang lain. Berlaku ihsan kepad setiap makhluk. Kita cuma menumpang, tidak menduduk tetap. Selgi mana ada rasa hamba dalam diri, selagi itu kita akan sentiasa beringat bahawa Allah itu maha luas kuasanya.

Sunday, December 23, 2018

Here Are The Advantages of Reading Motivational Quotes



One of the greatest motivational speaker Tony Robbins once said, "In life, you need either inspiration or desperation."
Just as harsh as it sounds, the truth is that we all are desperate in our lives. Desperate to become happy. Desperate to be at peace. Desperate to succeed.
And has this desperation taken us anywhere good? Don't think so! Stress, anxiety, depression are common to us. So, if a few words can motivate you to find relief, the question is why not? If a few words can boost your morale, the question is why not? Motivational quotes have an important role to play in our lives.
If you are still not convinced about the power of motivational quotes, here are a few advantages that will convince you otherwise.
Motivational Quotes Simplify Complex Ideas
"Sometimes you have to give yourself pep talks"
No offence to anyone, but hours of lecture on motivation can be boring. Compiling the ideas together into a book that features self-improvement quotes has a greater appeal. One simple quote can express ten different ideas without boring you out. In fact, a single quote can have more positive implications on a person downtrodden with negative thoughts than long lectures and presentations.
It is easy to remember them (and use for daily references)
"Life is a one-time offer, use it well!"
Incantations are extremely powerful. When you keep repeating the same thing again and again, your subconscious mind becomes aware of it. And once you penetrate the deep wall of your subconscious mind, your brain will work according to it. Since encouraging quotes are easy to remember, you can keep reminding yourself of the same to guide you, and get a result that is effectively positive.
These are the most effective inspirational tools
"It is always the simple that produces the marvelous" - Amelia Barr
Whether you are depressed or stressed, feeling low or just blank, a little motivation can never help. While there are different types of inspirational tools, a motivational quotes book is the most effective one out there. Reading those arousing words can help you channel your negative emotions and deal with them constructively.
They help share POVs
"We may encounter many defeats but we must not be defeated." - Maya Angelou
You are not alone! Somewhere someone has been experiencing the same problems as you. And a piece of advice from such a person, with whom you will never meet, but share a wonderful connection of hearts is the best gift for you. So, the nest time you fuss and fret over an issue, search for a quote as such. You will be at ease!
You can find them everywhere
We live in a world that is primarily controlled by the internet (and let us not focus on the cons for once; let us use this gift as a source of all things good as well). And the fact is that encouraging life quotes are easier to come across than finding tickets to lectures. They are free of cost and scattered in abundance all over the internet. Be it Facebook or Instagram, Twitter or Pinterest, you will find one perfectly suiting your temperament easily available. And you should definitely be taking advantage of that!
Motivational Quotes help you move forward
"Push yourself because no one else is going to do it for you."
Inspirational quotes remind you to move forward in life. That is self-explanatory! When you feel stuck somewhere, stuck in the past, recycling the old memories, one right quote can motivate you to get up and, move past your past regrets and have a fresh approach to life. Motivation quotes are the support you will ever need.
Because motivational quotes push you to take actions
"Thoughts Become Words, Words Become Actions, Actions Become Who You Are"
You think, you plan but fail to take an initiative. An inspirational quote can help you take that action which you were failing to take. These quotes remind you to take action, not just reflect your life with empty words. That should be enough to help you get up and get going.
Motivational Quotes act like a coach
Be it, Zig Ziglar, Tony Robbins or Nick Vujicic, these people have provided us with ample of inspirational quotes to move forth in life and achieve our dreams. Since they are not available for a session physically, reading their pieces of motivation can act as the perfect guide in your life.
So, stop contemplating and start reading!
This is no time to whine. So what you failed your exam? So what your boss doesn't appreciate you? So what life is unfair? Pick a motivational quote, get ample of encouragement, put your act together and walk forth. Always remember-
"Never let a stumble be the end of your journey"
Reading the motivational books make you indulge more and more towards the content and help you relate with your life's definition. We all need motivation in our life to fulfill all our dreams and aspirations and look at the life from a new window.

Restore Passion For Your Life

When was the last time you felt truly passionate about something? Felt good, right? And so it should! Good thing is, you can learn how to restore passion for your life.

Passion is most evident when body, mind and spirit work together to create, articulate or manifest feelings, ideas and values. Passion is ignited when all of you work together. It is the presence of your soul combined with the totality of all you've experienced, and it empowers to live at optimal levels.
Passion your natural state. When what you do is in alignment with who you are, it increases your energy. Passion is like water flowing along its natural riverbed, gaining momentum from its course - unlike many work environments, where it feels more like trying to force water up and over a mountain!
Passion creates resilience. It enables you to overcome obstacles and to look beyond current setbacks to the infinite potential that's yours to claim. The passionate soul discovers nuggets of potential in every situation.
Passion transfers vibrant energy to every person or situation it touches. You can't fake it. Anyone can spot a phony by sensing lack of authenticity and depth in their actions.
And yet, many people run from passion because they're afraid of being burned. They hang on to the pain of betrayed trust and misplaced confidences as a reminder to dampen their own passion, lest they be hurt again. Perhaps they held the bucket for soulless greed and overzealous egos disguised as passion. Consequently, they're afraid of taking the risk to live life fully, openly and passionately. They may have even vowed to never go there again.
Instead, they opt for a more predictable, monochromatic existence. Rather than taking exploring the endless possibilities of life, they insist on hiding inside a safety bubble; giving up on adventure to exist in a sanitary, colorless world where nothing new happens.
What they really need is to restore their passion!
If you want a juicy life, you need to open your heart and mind to the multidimensional experience of passionate living every day.
Can you imagine how much more meaningful our roles as parents, lovers, business owners, employees, teachers and leaders would be if all our actions were predicated on our true passion? There is no limit to how far your influence can reach! To tap into your potential, you must engage life with passion. By bringing passion to what you do, you express every aspect of your creative being.
Here's the secret to living a passionate life: Never try to throttle down your passion for fear of what might show up! You cannot selectively suppress some part of your being without also suppressing the rest of your energy. When you suppress your passion, you also suppress your Life Force.
Truth is, every activity you engage in expresses the whole of you - much like one part of a hologram reflects the whole in its entirety. Even if you pick a narrow skill like running a marathon or cooking, your whole sense of self is expressed through that activity when doing it with passion.
When living from your passion, you bring your entire identity to the party, not just an isolated part. This may sound daunting, but actually it's the most natural way to approach anything.
When you hold some part of yourself back, you deny it exposure to life; you repress its energy and keep it from learning what it needs to know. Imagine a baby who wants to learn how to walk but has these reservations:
  • I don't want to look bad.
  • I don't want to fall down.
  • I don't want to fail.
  • I don't want to expend all my energy.
  • I don't want any pain.
  • I don't want to suffer.
It would seem absurd! If these thoughts prevail, the chance for mastery could never present itself. Yet as adults we resort to such reservations all the time - and deny ourselves mastery as a result.
The minute a situation arises, all the negatives around that situation will arise in the mind along with all the possibilities. The key is that you have a choice about which to focus on!
When you choose to focus on negatives, you yield to subconscious fear to shut out understanding. Do that often enough and you become a victim, subject to bewildering fears that can threaten to overwhelm you. These fears aren't coming from blind fate or misfortune; they simply represent holes in your awareness, the places where you haven't dared to look yet.
To break free from such self-limiting behavior, try looking at an issue that has kept you from totally engaging in life. For instance, if you are worried about what others may think of your effort, then that is the issue you need to challenge!
When I launched out into a solo practice, well-intended friends questioned whether I would make it in a highly demanding field. I chose not to listen to the voices of apprehension; instead, I redoubled my efforts because my passion is to help people.
At the time, it was the scariest, riskiest, most challenging thing I could think of doing with my life. It was also the one thing that kept me dreaming and working against all odds. Today, I can look back at decades of amazing outcomes and success.
Choosing to follow my passion took me to the edge of my comfort zone and stretched me in every way possible. It also brought growth, joy and fulfillment into every area of my life. I wouldn't trade what I'm doing for the world, because I get to use my innate gifts daily. I love living in alignment with my purpose and my passion!
What is that one, wild dream you have buried deep within? Is it time to let it emerge into the light where you can nourish it into a passionate path to fulfillment? How will you know unless you try?
You can restore passion for your life.
Start voicing your inner dreams and passions. Face down your fears, and treat your dreams like tender threads of gold, for they are every bit as precious. They form the fabric that fabulous lives are woven from!

Grasshopper and Elephant Mentality in the Workplace and in Life

You know, we can learn a valuable lesson from the grasshopper, the elephant and the way people think. Here's why. If you want to keep a grasshopper for a pet, then all you need to do is to trap that grasshopper in a jar with a lid over it. And just like many of us, an imprisoned grasshopper will try desperately to escape using his powerful legs to smash the wall of resistance in search of freedom time and time again. At the outset, that grasshopper looked very persistent and determined to change its situation. And it would try and try again without any luck of breaking itself free. Then something happens, the grasshopper stops, the persistence of escaping stops. At this point, we all know that the grasshopper will never try to escape by jumping out of the jar with the lid. At the moment, you can take the lid off, and your (pet) grasshopper will not escape because once the grasshopper has learned that its situation did not change time after time no matter what it did in the past, its convinced that it will never change in the future. And it will settle upon its new life with no desire to reach beyond that comfort zone.

Many of us know about how elephant trainers teach elephants to stay in place. They get the baby elephant and lock a strong chain around its ankle and just as the grasshopper the baby elephant will pull and tug until it stops. And even once the elephant grows into an adult, it does not change in its beliefs. The trainer could tie a thin rope around the same ankle of the elephant, and it would not try to break away.
So there are similar parallels here in this simple life lesson between the grasshopper, the elephant, and people who have given up and have adopted the same mentality as the grasshopper and elephant-becoming comfortable and complacent with no sense of going on even if success is within reach. Mentally this person sees it as unreachable and unobtainable-it's too hard they may say. There are many problems with the grasshopper and elephant mentality when adopted by an individual, a group, or even an industry such as:
Ø The individual sees themselves as not having the ability to fit in with peers or able to leverage newer technologies
Ø They may prematurely size up the situation or competition and determine and perhaps talk themselves out of becoming successful by telling themselves: "I'm too old," "I don't have enough resources," "I don't have enough experience," "I don't want to get involved" or maybe "I was born on the wrong side of the tracks." We all know the song, but we keep singing it.
The game of chess is another example that is comparable to the game of our life. If you want to be successful, it's how you play the game. Chess is a game of change and adaptation. You have specific rules that players must follow in order to set up the game board. You have rules on how and in what direction the chess pieces must move on the board. Then you have rules on how to capture a chess piece, and finally how to win the game. Even though in chess there are rules to the game and one must follow them; no one plays the game the same because there are millions of ways to win and millions of ways to lose, but the outcome depends on the interactive interaction process between the two players. So similarly there are rules that govern change, and there are rules of adaptation to the change, but there is no one way that a person must take that leads to the path of success. Why? Because everyone is different, no two people are alike even if they were identical twins. Change and adaptation depend on the person's mindset be it positive or negative. It can also depend on that person's biological makeup and the psychological makeup and/or the environment in which they dwell in. That's why when talking about what situation will best promote efficiency in the workplace, it is best to think about what will specifically lead to increased proficiency and productivity of the individual employee. The environment for one thing or the workplace culture can help to improve efficiency. So, to avoid the grasshopper and elephant mentality as a human being, you must be able to accept, respond, and adapt to change because if not you will be stuck in that position not knowing the ability within you that is greater than the external forces. Discard your mental blockages because it will only lead to regression, limitations, stagnation, and ultimately a failure in reaching your goals. Remember you may limit yourself not your circumstances in life.

Sunday, December 16, 2018

Kemarau Yang Menguji Waras



Kadang kala diri mengeluh susahnya hidup. Tiada siapa yang menjamin hidup ini senang. Hatta orang yang punya harta segunung pun merungut sukarnya punya harta. Orang yang punya masa yang banyak pun mengeluh bosan. Lumrah manusia itu dilahirkan untuk beribadah. Mencari redha Allah SWT dlam cara yang pelbagai. Manusia itu punya atribut berbeza. Adik beradik yang berkongsi DNA yang sama juga acapkali berbeza pendapat. Apa lagi suami isteri dan rakan sekerja. Berbeza pndapat, bergaduh dan bertikam lidah itu normal. Yang tidak normalnya bila menjadikan isu kecil kepada besar. Dari bara menjadi kebakaran. Manusia diberi keistimewaan akal yang tidak ada pada makhluk lain. Kerana akal itu manusia diangkat lebih tinggi berbanding malaikat. Kearana nafsu itu manusia darjatnya lebih rendah dari binatang. Kerana itu akal perlu sihat untuk menimbang tara fasa kehidupan dengan cara yang matang.
                Kembali kepada persoalan pokok tentang sukarnya hidup. Sebermula kecil kita diberi ujian sesuai dengan kapasiti kita. Tidak ada manusia yang Allah kurniakan ujian melebihi batas kemampuan mereka. Allah itu maha tahu. Allah kenal kita siapa. Maka ujian selayaknya untuk kita. Para sahabat dan anbiya’ dikurniakan darjat yang tinggi bukan secara kosong, tetapi disusuli dengan ujian yang maha berat. Begitu juga dengan kita pada saat ini. Bila disingkap ujian orang yang berjaya, mereka tidak berada di atas dengan  jalan yang dihampar permaidani. Mereka malah bermula mungkin berbusana minima. Keterdesakan lampau mereka tiada siapa peduli. Jerih pedih bermula kosong menjadikan mereka kuat dan tegap menembusi siratan susah dihadapan mereka. Ada yang dibuang keluarga, dimusuhi teman, dibuang kerja dan mungkin diancam bunuh beberapa kali sebelum berjaya. Tatkala sudah berjaya, berada di puncak menggenggam jaya, ramai mula mengaku kenal. Yang sudah lama diam mula menuntut saudara. Masing-masing merebut rapat, menebus bahagian.
                Perkara sebegini sudah kerap benar berlaku dan akan kekal sehigga bila-bila. Sifat manusia itu berbolak balik hatinya. Sungguh ramai yang hatinya mampu dibeli dunia. Saat genting itu tiba dalam keadaan manusia itu dihimpit keterdesakan. Ramai yang tersungkur antara waras dan tidak pada saat sebegini. Yang mana masih waras, akan terselamat dan yag memilih untuk berserah diri, akan tersungkur teruk. Ingatlah, dunia tak selamanya hujan. Langit tak mendung berpanjangan. Ada saatnya kelak akan timbul mentari dan pelangi.

Thursday, March 29, 2018

Kisah 24 jam (FInale)

Entah kenapa malam tu aku susah sangat nak lelap. Mata aku dah hampir sejam tertutup tapi diri tak lena. Dalam kepala keluar macam-macam cerita. Mungkin ini lah akibatnya masa belajar dulu kerap layan movie sampai pagi. Jadi tabiat susah nak tidur malam. Ah, aku fikir guna saja petua orang lama. Kira kambing dalam kepala. Cuba....cuba...tetap sama...

Entah berapa ratus ribu dah kambing aku kira. Sama juga tak mampu nak lena. Aku ambik keputusan untuk buat milo segelas. Panas-panas aku lepak luar rumah sambil merenung rembulan. Orang bilang dikala malam enak kalau merenung pujangga dibawah sinar rembulan. Wah! Romantik juga orang dulu-dulu. Puitis sambil disadur lagu. Aku mula teringat aku dulu. Zaman muda-muda masih main galah panjang. Masa tu aku tak tau apa itu cinta. Yang aku tahu, dah besar nanti kerja dulu baru nikah. Oh ya, sebelum ni aku cerita pasal aku masa kecik di sekolah. Sekarang aku cerita masa hujung minggu buat apa.

Aku tatap padang sekolah depan rumah aku ni. Di sini lah kawasan yang aku paling suka dulu. Tempat berjumpa dengan kawan-kawan. Tendang bola sambil jerit suruh kejar. Bosan main bola, kita buat garisan main galah panjang pula. Kalau cukup orang, kita main selipar tiga.

Hidup zaman budak-budak aku kagum sebab banyak benar tenaga. Bagun seawal 5.30 pagi, terus mandi dan solat subuh satu keluarga. Lepas subuh biasanya aku pergi cuci kasut sekolah. Berus sampai hilang warna coklat. Maklum lah, zaman budak biasa pijak lumpur. Kasut putih jadi warna lumpur. Lama juga aku nak cuci kasut tu. Selagi tak puas hati, selagi tu aku sental bagi putih. Sabun tak cukup, minta lagi dengan mak. Mak bagi je walaupun tau aku membazir. Terima kasih mak. Kakak dan adik-adik semua kongsi satu bilik mandi nak cuci kasut. Kalau kasut kakak putih cepat, terus tanya kakak cuci macam mana. Lepas cuci, sidai siap-siap dan mandi bagi wangi badan.



Waktu paling ditunggu-tunggu adalah pukul 9.30 pagi. Masa tu rancangan dragon ball mula. Sebelum tengok dragon ball, kita main dulu badminton. Ketuk pintu jiran sebelah cari kawan. Kawan dah siap sekali dengan bulu tangkis baru. Bulu tangkis aku dah rosak teruk. Baguslah ada yang baru. Minggu depan aku pulak beli yang baru. Kami main mulanya berdua. Adik dengan kakak tengok, terus capai reket nak main sekali. Nasib ada bulu tangkis lebih. Boleh main sama-sama. Anak jiran lain tengok pun terus turun main sama. Penuh depan rumah anak jiran-jiran main badminton hujung minggu. Yang tak ada reket, kita pinjamkan. Dah penat tukar pulak pemain. Tiba-tiba satu suara jerit "Dragon Ball dah start ooiii". Oh, ayah aku rupanya. Semua anak-anak berlari masuk rumah masing-masing. Tak juga, ada yang melencong masuk rumah anak orang lain. Bangsa apa tak kira, janji kita layan cerita yang sama. Aku pun lupa kawan-kawan aku masa kecik ni bangsa apa. Ada iban, melanau, kenyah, cina, bidayuh, kedayan, melayu. Kadang-kadang semua nak ke rumah si anak cina tu. Sebab TV dia besar sikit. Ayah dia pun selalu suruh masuk rumah sebab suka tengok ramai budak-budak dalam rumah. Pendek cerita, semua duduk atas karpet merah tu. Depan TV layan dragon ball. Gelak tangis masa tu kita simpan jadi bahan bualan nanti petang.

Lepas habis, aku dan adik beradik balik rumah tengok mak memasak. Ayah pula tengah menaip depan typewritter dia. Mungkin ada kerja sekolah yang ayah perlu siapkan. Oh ya, ayah juga seorang penulis untuk Utusan Sarawak satu masa dahulu. Aku kira ayah akulah yang banyak mempengaruhi gaya penulisan aku sekarang. Memandangkan jam dah pukul 10.30, masa untuk siapkan kerja sekolah. Supaya nanti malam aku punya masa untuk bermain permainan baru aku.

Di rumah ku, ada satu ruang khas seperti perpustakaan mini. Di sanalah kami adik beradik selalu buat kerja sekolah. Kalau ada yang tak faham, kena tanya mak atau ayah. Biasanya aku akan sangkut subjek bahasa inggeris. Mak dengan ayah boleh tolong sikit. Tapi mungkin aku tak punya bakat dlaam subjek ni, aku selalu dapat markah rendah.

Aku pendekkan cerita, lepas zohor, kami makan tengah hari. Biasanya mak dan ayah akan keluar beli barang dapur atau menyemak kerja sekolah anak murid pada waktu sebegini. Aku? Inilah masa yang aku nantikan. Nanti petang Ada pertarungan hebat. Aku keluarkan layang-layang yang aku buat minggu lepas, aku baiki tulangnya. Ekor bagi panjang. Supaya nanti tinggi nampak ekor panjang macam naga atas awan. Tali pun nak bagi panjang. Lagi tinggi dia boleh pergi.

Sedar tak sedar, dah pukul 4. Lepas asar, aku dengan adik beradik meluru keluar dengan layang-layang berekor panjang. Anak-anak jiran yang lain juga keluar dengan layang-layang mereka. Ingat aku sorang yang fikir layang-layang ekor panjang ni, mereka pun sama. Malah ada yang bawak wau mini keluar! Hebat!



Usai bermain, malam aku seperti biasa. Makan, solat dan mengaji. Sebeblum tidur, aku buka bakul mainan ku. Penuh robot dan kereta lumba. Aku buat macam perang askar toys story atau small soldier. Hujung inggu biasanya mak akan hamparkan tilam besar di ruang tamu. Supaya aku dan adik beradik boleh main mainan kami. Ya, mainan yang hanya boleh dimain pada hujung minggu. Sebab tu mainan kami jarang hilang atau rosak. Lagipun, hari biasa agak padat. Tak punya masa untuk menikmati permainan itu. Malam itu kami bermain samapi tertidur. Maka, tertidurlah aku dengan patung power rangers dan Masked Rider.

Aku tersenyum bila terkenangkan zaman itu. Zaman yang tak akan kembali. Kawan-kawan ku yang sama membesar kini jauh sudah berjalan. Ada yang bekerja di luar negara. Ada juga yang Allah dah jemput. Aku rasa anak-anak aku nanti mungkin tak rasa macam mana kami membesar. Tak ada facebook dan insta pun tak mengapa. Jiwa kami besar. Sepanjang aku kecil, aku punya kawan yang aku kira ramai. Mereka ada saat aku susah dan senang. Boleh bicara dan borak sakan sampai petang. Anak sekarang mungkin ramai "friends" di friendlist. Tapi tak sampai lagi darjat seorang "Kawan". Entah berapa ramai kawan sebenarnya. Mungkin ramai hanya di sekolah. Sebab hanya di sekolah mereka tak dibenarkan bawak telefon pintar mereka. Mungkin.

Aku menghabiskan milo panas ku dan kembali cuba melelapkan mata. Akhirnya aku boleh tidur lena. Bersama kenangan lama yang mengusik jiwa. tenang...tiada fikir bluetick dan status online...

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